Things ended on a sort of bittersweet note today, but I’m still sad.
I know we’re drifting, even though we both deny it.
Sickkkkkk, this is really what I needed today; a big slap in the face, thank you for that. I can’t remember the last time I felt this shitty. Cool.
literally having the worst day
No one should have to feel like this ever.
I’m sick of being this depressed little bitch. Every time I think things are maybe going okay, something else goes wrong and now I really don’t think it’ll ever be okay.
I’m really not okay.
need a friend to talk to :c
I need a good friend more than anything right now.
But I also need to finish my fucking speech project.
And I also need to sleep.
Fuck.
how do I get so easily distracted ugh
I meant to go take a shower at like 9:45 THAT WAS 27 MINUTES AGO OK 27 m i n u t e s
HA
I’ve just had another one of my epiphanies where I realize that I care too much about shit that doesn’t matter and disregard all insecurities and sadness and I literally am crying with laughter alone in my room at absolutely nothing and IT’S SO GREAT also I decided that the ex-boyfriend fagwad that I’ve been trying to stay friends with for all this time is completely undeserving of my loyalty & friendship and therefore I am done with him and done with caring about little things that really don’t matter and I’m honestly just in the greatest mood this had better last. It will last. You just wait and see.
I’m not perfect, but I do know I don’t deserve this.
Spend entire night trying to help you, then you turn around and treat me like absolute shit. I’m just about absolutely done trying to help you. Sorry. Except not really.
I don’t know what to do I need to cut more than anything right now but I know I can’t but nothing else helps
